Off the top of my head its validating to be comfortable in my skin.  By that I mean that there has not ever been a time when I felt it was okay to go out in public and show off some skin.  Keep in mind when you're standing at 5'7" and pushing 3 bills there are certain rules that one should go with.  I know that its painfully shallow to say but if you're a larger person and choose to show off skin then you get to subscribe to the remarks that could follow.  I weighed in at 225pounds yesterday so my figure doesn't look as morbidly huge as it did before.  With that I've now gotten into the habit of wearing the wife beater tee shirts under my normal t-shirt.  The reason any of this is relevant is that now I'll sit out in public with just the wife beater on and shorts.  If I were 315 pounds like I was not long ago no way in hell would I do that.

That's just one of a few perks from going healthy.  I had to bite my tongue-- I almost said "Battling Obesity".  I'm fed up with people tossing the term "battling" around as if everything in life is a battle. Slow down-- battles involve weapons and horrors of war. When someone tells me their battling something that may be tough to over come they could use a better choice of words.  I realize its all figurative and to get a point across but when you use that word constantly it loses its spunk. Worst example of this, are the people who go on these charity walks and then say their battling whatever disease its for.  Its 1 thing if you have the desease and have to live with it.  I suppose there its  feasible to use the term battle, but c'mon walking for a cause is no battle.  If life is such a battle then you're living it wrong to begin with.

Speaking of life I've lived it a bit differently lately-- I take on things differently and have been blitzkrieg with could be's and might-happens.  I'm partially to blame for this as I've made the choice not to be mundane and live a life where I have to carve my path. Speaking of paths, 1 of the most vague tidbits of advice given to me 1 night was "your path is your path". That almost echoes of "it is what it is." As I had been hanging on to the vine of "could-be's" and "Might Happens" there were a handful of times when I would get let down.  My 1st reaction was a resounding What the fuck?  I was feeling not necessarily entitled but jerked around.

I've addressed entitlement in the past so I won't beat that dead horse, but what I'll add to it is maybe I do things differently because of my views on what is owed to me and what isn't owed to me.  I'm 27 and now that I had my 7month fill of being settled down I'm fully dedicated to the projects I once worked on.  I'm not going to get into details because I'd rather just post about it all after its happened.

I keep reading this title and wonder why I wrote "Angsty isn't cool" I chose that because at 27 somedays I felt angsty and I had to kick my own ass and remind myself that I look god awful running around as an angsty fellow.  Every definition I looked up on the internet associated angst with teenager and that's not how I'd wanna illustrate myself.  Speaking of the internet, I was talking to someone who would sit and watch a handful of viral videos and just browse the internet. This triggered something because I kept ranting about how viral videos are what lead to this urge for instant gratification amongst younger folks. I would have hoped that young adults would realize that you can't sit at home, film some  stupid shit post it on youtube and then pester the fuck out of people to watch it. That isn't a talent.  I know that some people may think sitting in their parent's basement and filming whatever the fuck they want and then broadcasting it makes them special or talented-- but there are so many people who have studied and spent hundreds of hours learning to properly do all this stuff. Even journalism is raped. I'm part of that problem. I sit here and write but I'm by no means a journalist.  I have a writing background with my bachelors degree but I'm no columnist of any kind. I used to write and publish as a means of therapy. Readership was never important. I took to the internet because it was there. I actually keep a very mindful eye about promotions and that kind of bullshit. I'd love to get my message out there but not enough to hire someone to sit around and turn me into a product. I'm a person, not a product.

Lastly, I highly suggest people start reading www.livescience.com its a science based publication. No spin, no agenda strictly learning and its fucking great. Also next post I will include all the awesome details of the Lamb of God concert that I will be going to.

As always thank you for reading and anyone who wants to contact me with suggestions, complaints, etc. I'm at steve.weirich@gmail.com